Hurt

It is not ok
Even though I told you it was
It is not
I'm not lying to myself and saying it is
Cuz it is NOT!
When you told me it was easy to hide
Hide behind a mask
A mask called cyber world
I acted happy
Becasue it was easy
I told you it was great
But inside I crushed
I broke down
I cried
I cried for so long my eyes burned
I kept telling myself that I would be fine
That it would just be a little longer
But then I realized it would be more than a little longer
I knew whenever i saw you
I would break inside
I had a plan to switch schools if it got to bad
I was running away from my problems
I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed the next day
It hurt
It made my heart hurt
I changed everything
My thinking about you
Your name in my phone
I took your picture off my wall
I let the tears fall all over the journal entries
I wouldn't text you back
It just hurt me to much
I couldn't believe I got attached to you
It happened again
My heart broke
By someone who I thought would never do that
You shattered it
I had my excuses for you
So you wouldn't have to worry about me
But I still loved you
Even if I was lying to myself and said I didnt
I did
So I finally texted you back
Becasue I couldn't stand not talking to you
We talked
You picked up all the pieces of my shattered heart
You put it back together
I decided to give you a second chance
That was the best thing I did
EVER
It still isn't ok
but I will live with it for now
Becasue you dont like to see me hurt
And i love you
I truley do
Even if it still will hurt
It might all be worth it

Authors Note:
This poem is about someone I am very close to. I am not going to say any names so they dont have to explain to anyone. I knwo it also uses "I" voice but i put it in that so i could picture it better and write about it. so yeah but I like this one becasue it kinda tells a story... idk why i bet it isnt that good but whatever i try! love you all!

My Book (more of it)

So this is the beginning of my book :) If you haven't read the summary or forgot what it is about go to the first My Book post and read it :)
Note: This is still a first draft

All I wanted in life was to fit in. I couldn't find acceptance anywhere. IT might have been the face that I moved once a year, my mom was gone and my dad was in the army. My dad would always tell me things would get better and I would find friends. But when I looked in the mirror all I could see was a plain girl with long dark hair and grey eyes. It seemed like I was nothing, just another face in the crowed. When my dad told me otherwise I didn't know if I could believe him. Now I am here in front of yet another school, on the first day of my senior year. I now it will play out like all my other years of school, It might even be worse. My dad says it is a new beginning but I don't beleive it. He has said that everytime I go to a new school. I actually like to think of it as more of a beginning to an end. A story that is writing itself.
I walked in the school and there were kids everywhere. This was my first time at a public school. It was strange seeing so many people dressing different. Girls in shorts, boys in hoodies, none of the stupid plaid skirts or polo shirts. All the veriety it was almost intreging. It drew me nearer. Everything about it. This was unlike anyother place I have been.

Ok so this is the beginning well some of it. And I hope you all like it. :P