Happiness

What is happiness
What does it really mean
Does it mean we have a smile on our faces
Ot is it something more
What makes people happy
What makes me happy
Happiness is
Dancing all my emotions out
Dancing till I have no more energy
Dancing in the rain
Dancing spastically
Dancing like there is no tomorrow
Happiness it
Writing poems
Writing stories
Writing nonsense
Hapiness is
Hugging my mom
Hugging my sister
Hugging my nieces
Hugging my nephews
Hugging my best friends
Hugging in general
Happiness is
Watching movies
Watching TV
Watching the rain fall
Watching the snow fall
Watching the night come
Watching people dance
Happiness is
Singing songs
Singing with my sister
Singing for people
Singing really bad XD
Happiness is
Drinking Dr. Pepper
Eating Macaroni and Cheese
Drinking milk
Eating cold cereal
Happiness is
Smiling
Happiness is
Talking to people
Helping people
Texting people
Happiness is
Seeing others happy
Seeing a baby smile
Hearing a baby laugh
Happiness is all this to me and more
This is what happiness means to me

Authors Note:
Ok so I came to the realization the other day that I really only write poems when I am feeling down. I havent felt down in like 1 1/2 2 months now. So I really didn't write any. I was talking to someone and they were trying to help me find something to write about when I was happy. So I decided to write a poem about what happiness is to me. So I was listening to the song Happiness is from: You're a Good Man Charlie Brown and it inspired the writing format from this poem. Hence all the happiness is. So yeah I hope you enjoy it!

Scars

Scars
A word which can mean so many things
You can have scars in so many places
They all stories to go with them
You show then to everyone so they can be amazed with them
But there are always the one people can't see
The ones on your heart and soul
No one know they are there but you
They are from heartbreak, failure, and disapointment
After someone hurts you the wound is created
You are sad for a short period
Then the scar is made
The scar that will remain there forever
There is nothing you can do to get rid of it
The hidden scars
You only know that they are there
Where they came from
Who gave them to you
It makes it sore when you or think about the person
Then you find the one who you think will take the scars away
But they are always there
You open up to the person and show them the scars on your heart and soul
Now they know they are there
They do all they can to help you
Then you notice they have scars too
Everyone has hidden scars
Everyone has been broken
It is one simularity all humans have
It binds everyone together
Scars
One simple word
A word that means alot but also binds the world together
It brings everyone together in a special sense
No one knows
but everyone can relate
Something so sad and so great
Everyone has been hurt by something they thought they would have
Have forever
But instead it was replaced
Replaced with a scar
Sacrs
Break hurt torment
Scars
On the heart and soul forever

Authors Note:
Ok this poem is one of my worse ones I think. But I think it is so true that this is possibly what binds everyone together. hope you enjoy!

Shattered

I thought I was getting myself into something wonderful
You taught me it was all right to be me
You changed me
Or so I thought
You were supposed to be the best thing that happened to me
Then there was the one moment that changed everything
You ruined it all
It only took three seconds
After that all we had was gone
Gone for good
Or so I thought
In that one moment you broke my heart
Broke it in three peices
Leaving two with me and taking one with you
You left me there alone with a big piece of my heart missing
Friends told me it would grow back
That the hole would be filled
But I was mad about it for too long
Everytime I tried to get close to someone else
You enter my hear
I see an image of your face and clearly hear your voice
The hole in my heart gets bigger
I swore I would never love again
So I wouldn't have to see you
It worked
I was happy once more
The hole was closing
Then I met someone
Someone I thought that maybe it would work
This time I didn't see or hear you
I was whole once more
Then you showed up
in person this time
You are not ruining the best thing I have ever had
Once more you are making me broken
Making the hole once more
Becasue of you I am shattered
Shattered for good

Authors Note:
There is a whole big story behind this poem. But I wrote it a while ago I don't feel this way anymore. I am happy so dont get worried that is all

My Book

ok so I am writing a book. And it is coming along ok. I have the beginning done and the end is almost done and I have bits and pieces of the middle.
So a quick summary of the book is.
There is a girl named Erika and she is a dancer. Her mom died of cancer when she was little and her dad is in the army. So they move alot. And she hates it. She has two older brothers who are twins (AJ and CJ) She hates them too. She basically hates life. She contunies dancing only becasue it was her mothers dream so she feels as if she has to continue to the dream. So it is her sr year of highschool and they just moved to Conneticut. She is not happy. She goes through a bunch of crap and then meets a friend Lucy. They get in a car accident. Lucy dies and Erika lives. Erika suffers now from a broken pelivis, a broken leg, and damage all over her body. She can't dance again. She is devistated. And it is basically about how she goes throughout life.
So I had a movie magic moment about two weeks ago. It was a saturday and I was not being a happy camper, becasue my friends who I would make plans with kept ditching me. So yeah I walked outside and looked up at the sky and the second I looked up at the sky it started to snow. I swear I almost cried. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen ever!!! so i decieded to put something like that in my book so I did. As the end. It is not finished but I am going to put what I have :] hope you enjoy!

Note: This is still a first draft. Therefore I do not put anything in paragraphs. If you dont like it live with it. And it is also not all the way done so if it cuts off sorry! also first draft it is going to be messy and might not make sense in places.

I was in bed all day. I hadn't been to school since the last time I had that talk with Nick. Two weeks. I just couldn't handle school or people anymore. It was to much for me. The stares I got from people. I just couldn't do it. So I went back to sitting in a bed all day. Today was a bit different though. CJ and AJ were being super nice. They got home from school and came and carried me downstiars. They put me in my wheel chair and wheeled me outside. When we got out there I looked up and started crying. The sky was covered in grey clouds and snow was falling. It was the most beautiful thing I had seen in a long time. I had never seen snow like this. It was amazing. A flake hit my cheek and it felt like a little baby kiss that melted on my face. "Thank you." I said out of my teary sound. My brothers have never done something like this for me ever. It amazed me! "Your welcome Erika we thought you would like it." AJ said in a tone that was not his normal joking tone. HE said it very sincerly. I turned around to see my brothers faces. They were crying. I had never once felt colser to my brothers that I did now. We were all staring up at the sky now. It was silent, as the happy tears fell down our faces. I usually perferd rain but today I perferd snow. "Erika if you ever need anything you can always come to us. I know we haven't been the nicest to you in the past, but we were thinking about it and if you would have died in that accident we wouldn't know what to do. We love you." When CJ said this he was bawling. I looked up at him. "CJ I know thank you. YOu guys are the greatest people I know. I was always worried about not having friends and being alone. But I should have never worried about that, becasue I should have known I always have you two." The tears were freezing to my cheeks, like ice cicles. But I didn't care to much, I had the two best people right by me sharrig this special moment with me. Right now I didn't care about Nick or any of the kids at school. All I cared for was this moment, this moment in my life. This was the perfect way to end an emotional day.

That is all I am going to share with you right now! I do have more and if you guys like it then I will post more!

Rain

Clouds grey
Sky gloomy
Water falls from the sky
A day where no one wants to go outside
All the kids play their rainy day games
Rain
But as for me
I am outside
Dancing
Thinking
Walking
Letting all emotions out
My favorite weather
It clears the land
It clears my head
Clears my head so I have no more worries
It makes me feel I can move on again
Water falls from the sky
A symbol of tears
A symbol of the world crying
When it rains I am thankful
Thankful for the earth
Thankful for my trials
Thankful for everything
Becasue when the rain stops
I am clean and happy once more

Authors Note:
Rain is my favorite weather truthfully. I wrote this when it was raining outside and I was stuck in school. I wanted to be out side so bad so instead i wrote about it! Hope you enjoy!

Get Inspirerd

So one of my friends asked me how I get into the wrtting mode. So I thought I would share. So first I think of a past experience. Something that is worth writting about. Then if I can't find anything I will listen to a song off my Inpirational Playlist on my ipod. Then I will usually ask someone about their fears or something really happy and such to see if I can bounce an idea off that. Now if all fails I do this thing called a thought train. I will show you how it goes:

Cookie-milk-cows-farm-pigs-pink-tickle-elmo-big bird-love-devine-destiny-magic-Harry Potter-Draco Malfoy-so fine-good-emotion-dark-light-eyes-brown-chocolate-james-payden-macaroni and cheese-thursdays-papers-writting-favorite-dr pepper-headache-migrain-sick-yucky-sleep-bed-snuggie-pillow pet-beat boxing-james-julia-fashionable-dresses-prom-ian-mission-ethan-brother-family

that is a thought train and I use it all the time if you are ever stuck in writers block use it it helps.

His Hands

Note:This is a Religous Poem

My life is not the easiest one
Then again whose is
There are so many trials in my life
Sometimes I don't think I can go on
It is to hard
It gets complicated
So complicated I just break down
Then I go searching fo the meaning
The meaning of life
I wonder if life has a meaning
Then I get the feeling to stop
Stop and pray
Praying
The communication between people and God
I ask for things to be better
Then hard times are lifted
And I see his hand working in my life
Turning things around
Helping me turn around
Turn around to get back on the path
The path so I can find my way
Find my way back to him someday
His Hand guides me but does not do things for me
Then I realize we are his hands
We do the work for the Lord
The work he can't do on this earth
He can do all things
But we are here
Here to be his hands
His hands are there to help me in my life
I am greatful to see his hands in my life
As well as I am to be his hands
To help this earth
To hel his gospel spread
Spread throughout the earth
Everytime I am being used as his hands
My testimony grows
My life is full of complicated things
But whose isn't
There are so many trails
But beacsue of his hands
I would never wish to take any of it back
He helps me grow
He gives me my trails
So my weak self can become strong
He helps me everyday
Helps me with his hands

Authors note:
Ok this is my favorite poem I have ever written. It is my testimony of the gospel. I hope you like it

Finding My Neverland

People always ask me when will you grow up
I don't know how to answer so I just walk away
Everyday I get funny looks becasue of my childish acts
I look at those people and break inside
A kind of breaking where my systems shut down
It is a heart breaking feeling
Then I start thinking, wondering about if I really do need to grow up
Change me and be someone different
I breakdown and cry sometimes
Then I realize I have the key to the door
The door to my Neverland
Neverland a place where no one has to grow up
A place where you can always be yourself
A place where you can have no worries
It is not anyone elses Neverland it is mine
I know I can always be happy there
I can sing dance and play with no worries
Everyone is friends, no one makes fun of one another
It is a place that is under lock and key in the back of my mind
There so no one outside can enter in
It is my place
My Neverland
A place where all life is beautiful
Everyone lives to the fullest of their potential
Everyone is here not to grow up
To have the childhood they have always wanted
Everyone is happy
There is no emptyness at all
No overpowering feeling but happiness
Everywhere you go in Neverland you have a friend
NO one has to worry here
No anxiety
No depression
No emptyness
No fear
No heartbreak
Nothing but happiness and love in my Neverland
I don't have to grow up ever
I am perfect the way I am
Always young at heart
but sooner or later I have to walk out the door
The door in my mind and lock it up
I don't want anyone to enter in and destroy it all
So I walk out and go out in the real world once more
And take the critisim
The hate
The looks
Bottle it all up inside me until my cup is full
When that time comes and I am sad once more
I go unlock the door to my Neverland again
And enter into a place like none other
The place I wanna stay forever
It breaks my heart that I can't
An escaping place in my mind
It is mine forever
My own little place
For no one else but me
MY NEVERLAND!

Authors Note:
This poem is based off of life experiences. It came from my heart. It came from my feelings. I really believe that everyone has their own Neverland. So i dedicate this poem to everyone who feels alone and lost, who doesn;t know where to turn. It took me months to write this. It was hard to write. to get the wording right. I had alot of writers block. I wasn't sure if I wanted to let my ture feelings out to the world. So here it is for people to read! HOPE YOU ENJOY!!!

writing

ok so i have made this blog for all my writtings i will start posting later today. title i always make sure i have the right inspiration before i write. so yeah... i will post poems and segments from my book and yeah haha :P