Finding My Neverland

People always ask me when will you grow up
I don't know how to answer so I just walk away
Everyday I get funny looks becasue of my childish acts
I look at those people and break inside
A kind of breaking where my systems shut down
It is a heart breaking feeling
Then I start thinking, wondering about if I really do need to grow up
Change me and be someone different
I breakdown and cry sometimes
Then I realize I have the key to the door
The door to my Neverland
Neverland a place where no one has to grow up
A place where you can always be yourself
A place where you can have no worries
It is not anyone elses Neverland it is mine
I know I can always be happy there
I can sing dance and play with no worries
Everyone is friends, no one makes fun of one another
It is a place that is under lock and key in the back of my mind
There so no one outside can enter in
It is my place
My Neverland
A place where all life is beautiful
Everyone lives to the fullest of their potential
Everyone is here not to grow up
To have the childhood they have always wanted
Everyone is happy
There is no emptyness at all
No overpowering feeling but happiness
Everywhere you go in Neverland you have a friend
NO one has to worry here
No anxiety
No depression
No emptyness
No fear
No heartbreak
Nothing but happiness and love in my Neverland
I don't have to grow up ever
I am perfect the way I am
Always young at heart
but sooner or later I have to walk out the door
The door in my mind and lock it up
I don't want anyone to enter in and destroy it all
So I walk out and go out in the real world once more
And take the critisim
The hate
The looks
Bottle it all up inside me until my cup is full
When that time comes and I am sad once more
I go unlock the door to my Neverland again
And enter into a place like none other
The place I wanna stay forever
It breaks my heart that I can't
An escaping place in my mind
It is mine forever
My own little place
For no one else but me
MY NEVERLAND!

Authors Note:
This poem is based off of life experiences. It came from my heart. It came from my feelings. I really believe that everyone has their own Neverland. So i dedicate this poem to everyone who feels alone and lost, who doesn;t know where to turn. It took me months to write this. It was hard to write. to get the wording right. I had alot of writers block. I wasn't sure if I wanted to let my ture feelings out to the world. So here it is for people to read! HOPE YOU ENJOY!!!